Friday, October 09, 2009
had an awesome cell session today and it made me think of what's going on in my life now.
firstly, keryew asked us, if we die tmr, what would we regret?
at first my answer was not getting married and having a family of my own.
but then i thought, that doesn't really constitute as a regret because it's not like i've had chances to get married but due to certain reasons i chose not to.
in this case it would be more of being upset that i didn't get the opportunity of enjoying a marriage and starting a family of my own than regretting it.
so i'm not quite sure what i'd regret.
then keryew asked if your mum dies tmr, what would you regret?
taking it as both my parents, i think i would regret not spending more time with them.
that means i should do smth about it right?
seriously, i feel like i've taken them for granted all my life.
everyone just stop for a moment and wonder, don't you think that you've all been incredibly blessed by your parents? they pay for our education, they pay for our food, our shelter, most of our wants and most if not all of us never have to worry about finances. they work hard to do all that including bringing us up and let's face it looking after children is possibly the most challenging thing to do.
and all we ever do is complain how much they nag at us, how they don't let us do certain things etc. ok if you don't do any of the above, then you're a perfect kid. but i'm not and writing all this down just reminds me of how ungrateful i've been to them.
as i've always said to someone, no parent aims to be a bad parent. whatever they do, they do it because they love us. think about it.
so hopefully i can set aside more time with my parents, be it watching soccer with them on weekends, having dinner together on weekdays... and hopefully when i'm older, i'll be able to treat them to nice dinners, bring them on holidays and so on to thank them for all the hard work they've put into raising me up. (:
it's time to think about how we're treating our parents. don't regret when it's too late.
smth else we talked about was how we always want things we can't have.
like we want to be smarter (especially for uni people?) or more money or whatever.
i think keryew put it in the best way, we want it but we DON'T HAVE it, so there's really no point thinking of the what ifs, we should concentrate on what we have instead. (:
on a happier note, grace and andrew's wedding, 22nd november. (: though it's the sunday before the week i have 4 final sem papers, God will see me through yes?
and thank God for awesome friends amidst this pretty toturous week. aa202 paper was epic fail as the guys would've put it ): but really, thank God for jack and noel for putting up with all my questions on variances and ROI, for shawn for getting dinner for all of us mugging students in the library, victor for the free entertainment (hahaha) and for ziwei who gave us a lift to hougang after the paper ended 9.45pm. you guys are God-sent, even if you guys don't agree with it. (:
thank God for upsize too you girls make my week every week. i look forward to every friday evening (i really do!) to just unwind, share, learn, laugh and grow with you girls. you girls are abviously God-sent. (:
oh yeah took a cab home with colleen and kenneth and i was saying most guys have an inborn nature to want to protect girls (whether it's a girlfriend or not) and colleen was like kenneth you better not lose that nature it's the most attractive thing to a girl and i have to say i couldn't agree more. (:
actually i think for me the most attractive thing about a guy (after we get together) would be the little things that he rmb that are impt to you which you think he doesn't really care about. but for now that's just wishful thinking on my part huh. haha ok just read min's blog and got some inspiration. after all if you can't whine on your blog who can you whine to? (:
i realise that life's a lot easier when you look at each bad thing that happens as smth which God has placed intentionally in your life, to mould you into the person that He wants you to be.
in all honesty, sometimes it's hard for me to find the learning point. looking back, there was a lot of self pity involved, just going on and on about how my life sucks and i'm just gonna keep crying but never, ok God, so what do You want to show/teach me through all this?
and so today i resolve to focus more on Him, especially when dark clouds gather and He seems to fade away, all the more i'm gonna look even harder and not wallow in self pity.
i'm thinking studying communications this sem has a lot to do with this realisation. hahaha. well for one i learnt how we were brought up, our surroundings, shapes what we think is right or wrong, appropriate or inappropriate, how to act in certain situations etc. thing is, we were all brought up differently! around different people and in different environments. so everyone's gonna have different opinions on most issues, especially those with grey areas.
i used to think someone had to be right. or rather, i wanted to be right. so silly and immature really. i'd think, it's impossible for both parties to be right, right? haha. but yeah took me a while to realise that both parties can be right, we just have our own opinions and who's to say they're wrong?
thank God for bringing me through it all this while, i know without Him i would've given up, self-destructed a long time ago (hence the picture on top. but it's still a cute cloud(: ). and even though it still hurts, i know He has placed me here for a reason, to grow, to learn smth, and i'm all ears (and eyes) to His message.
ok i'm really hungry right now, waiting for dinner. got lots to do but i can't do much when i'm hungry. :P and hence the picture. :D
had an awesome cell session today and it made me think of what's going on in my life now.
firstly, keryew asked us, if we die tmr, what would we regret?
at first my answer was not getting married and having a family of my own.
but then i thought, that doesn't really constitute as a regret because it's not like i've had chances to get married but due to certain reasons i chose not to.
in this case it would be more of being upset that i didn't get the opportunity of enjoying a marriage and starting a family of my own than regretting it.
so i'm not quite sure what i'd regret.
then keryew asked if your mum dies tmr, what would you regret?
taking it as both my parents, i think i would regret not spending more time with them.
that means i should do smth about it right?
seriously, i feel like i've taken them for granted all my life.
everyone just stop for a moment and wonder, don't you think that you've all been incredibly blessed by your parents? they pay for our education, they pay for our food, our shelter, most of our wants and most if not all of us never have to worry about finances. they work hard to do all that including bringing us up and let's face it looking after children is possibly the most challenging thing to do.
and all we ever do is complain how much they nag at us, how they don't let us do certain things etc. ok if you don't do any of the above, then you're a perfect kid. but i'm not and writing all this down just reminds me of how ungrateful i've been to them.
as i've always said to someone, no parent aims to be a bad parent. whatever they do, they do it because they love us. think about it.
so hopefully i can set aside more time with my parents, be it watching soccer with them on weekends, having dinner together on weekdays... and hopefully when i'm older, i'll be able to treat them to nice dinners, bring them on holidays and so on to thank them for all the hard work they've put into raising me up. (:
it's time to think about how we're treating our parents. don't regret when it's too late.
smth else we talked about was how we always want things we can't have.
like we want to be smarter (especially for uni people?) or more money or whatever.
i think keryew put it in the best way, we want it but we DON'T HAVE it, so there's really no point thinking of the what ifs, we should concentrate on what we have instead. (:
on a happier note, grace and andrew's wedding, 22nd november. (: though it's the sunday before the week i have 4 final sem papers, God will see me through yes?
and thank God for awesome friends amidst this pretty toturous week. aa202 paper was epic fail as the guys would've put it ): but really, thank God for jack and noel for putting up with all my questions on variances and ROI, for shawn for getting dinner for all of us mugging students in the library, victor for the free entertainment (hahaha) and for ziwei who gave us a lift to hougang after the paper ended 9.45pm. you guys are God-sent, even if you guys don't agree with it. (:
thank God for upsize too you girls make my week every week. i look forward to every friday evening (i really do!) to just unwind, share, learn, laugh and grow with you girls. you girls are abviously God-sent. (:
oh yeah took a cab home with colleen and kenneth and i was saying most guys have an inborn nature to want to protect girls (whether it's a girlfriend or not) and colleen was like kenneth you better not lose that nature it's the most attractive thing to a girl and i have to say i couldn't agree more. (:
actually i think for me the most attractive thing about a guy (after we get together) would be the little things that he rmb that are impt to you which you think he doesn't really care about. but for now that's just wishful thinking on my part huh. haha ok just read min's blog and got some inspiration. after all if you can't whine on your blog who can you whine to? (:
watchin u;
at 8:50 AM
Tuesday, October 06, 2009
i realise that life's a lot easier when you look at each bad thing that happens as smth which God has placed intentionally in your life, to mould you into the person that He wants you to be.
in all honesty, sometimes it's hard for me to find the learning point. looking back, there was a lot of self pity involved, just going on and on about how my life sucks and i'm just gonna keep crying but never, ok God, so what do You want to show/teach me through all this?
and so today i resolve to focus more on Him, especially when dark clouds gather and He seems to fade away, all the more i'm gonna look even harder and not wallow in self pity.
i'm thinking studying communications this sem has a lot to do with this realisation. hahaha. well for one i learnt how we were brought up, our surroundings, shapes what we think is right or wrong, appropriate or inappropriate, how to act in certain situations etc. thing is, we were all brought up differently! around different people and in different environments. so everyone's gonna have different opinions on most issues, especially those with grey areas.
i used to think someone had to be right. or rather, i wanted to be right. so silly and immature really. i'd think, it's impossible for both parties to be right, right? haha. but yeah took me a while to realise that both parties can be right, we just have our own opinions and who's to say they're wrong?
thank God for bringing me through it all this while, i know without Him i would've given up, self-destructed a long time ago (hence the picture on top. but it's still a cute cloud(: ). and even though it still hurts, i know He has placed me here for a reason, to grow, to learn smth, and i'm all ears (and eyes) to His message.
ok i'm really hungry right now, waiting for dinner. got lots to do but i can't do much when i'm hungry. :P and hence the picture. :D
watchin u;
at 3:39 AM